The reason I committed suicide last night...

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This is a rant I wrote a month or so ago, I thought I would share it here.

The reason I committed suicide last night...

I am a different person today, but I have not changed. I have just opened my eyes. This is my first blog entry and I want to start getting everything down in writing, my thoughts, feelings, experiences, everything. I want people to know my outlook on life and I thought the best place to do it would be here on Facebook, with my family, friends and anyone else who has an open ear.

I am a firm Libertarian, and I decided that today. Before today, it has been kind of a tentative thing, however I realized that there is no way around it. People like to call Libertarians things like anarchists, rebels and the like however that just proves their ignorance.

I am tired of people telling me what I can/can't/won't/should/shouldn't do, it is just plain ****ing bull****. It really pisses me off when someone tells me I shouldn't drive without a license. "Oh, you have a family, you have responsibilities." blah blah ****ing blah. I have the right to do what I want, when I want, how I want, where I want, as long as I am not directly hurting someone else.

Last night I was driving out to my Dad's house to take him his gloves that he left at my apartment. Linkin Park came on and they are one of my favorite artists to speed to (I drive a 2007 Nissan Sentra SE-R Spec-V, 200 Horsepower 2.5 Liter 4 Cylinders, racing clutch the whole 9 yards). I like to drive fast, and I do it all the time. I lost my license a couple years ago for unpaid speeding tickets, etc and since then it has been a downhill battle. I had $30,000+ in tickets at one point in time until a kind judge knocked that down to about $5,000 and I agreed to pay at least $50 to the Warrenton municipal court once a month and remain on bench probation.

Well, last month in December I had absolutely no money, extremely hard month for me. I went in and said that I won't be able to make my payment and asked if there were any other alternatives. The court clerk kindly told me that no, there were not. They don't allow community service hours because of liability, etc and it costs them too much money if I join work crew (wtf?).

A few days after Christmas I got a letter stating that a warrant had been issued for my arrest due to failure to uphold a court order to pay my fines. I went to the police station on 3 separate occasions to serve my warrant, and it took them until the second week of January to finally get the warrant into the police systems.

Continuing where I left off, I cranked up Linkin Park and pushed the accelerator down a little more. (btw, I am always planning what I am going to say to any cops who pull me over, it is part of the fun) I come around a really beautiful corner on Highway 30 (Near Svenson) and go right past a County Sheriff cruiser. I had 2 choices at that point, double-clutch down to 4 and take the hell off, or pull over and deal with the consequences of my actions. I chose the latter, I looked for a very nice area to pull off, and I shut the car off and waited there for about 30 seconds for the cop to catch up. He pulled up behind me and then turned his lights on.

He walks up to the car and says, "72 in a 55, what's the hurry?"

I replied, "I was going 80, I am on my way to my Dad's house because we got into an argument earlier and I am trying to beat him home to make sure he does not drink himself into a stupor like he did on Christmas."

Officer replies with the all too familiar and dreaded statement, "License, registration, proof of insurance please."

My reply, which I had been planning for the last 20 minutes, "Officer, I am going to be completely honest with you. I lost my license a couple years ago for speeding. You can take my car, impound it, write me tickets; I am okay with that. I am still going to drive without a license and speed. That is who I am, and that is what I like to do. I am a straight and narrow citizen, I don't do drugs, and I respect other people. I do not speed in residential, commercial, or densely populated areas. I do not break any other laws, and I am probably one of the most honest people you will meet in your entire life. I even pulled over and waited for you. [I described my car and what it was capable of]"

The officer then again replies, "Wow you are very honest, while you look for your registration and insurance I am going to run your ID."

The officer comes back to the car and says, "Mr. Rowland, could you please step out of the vehicle, I have something to talk to you about at my cruiser."

I replied, "I have a warrant ... don't I?"

Officer, "Yes"

Me, "Damn, I know what that's for."

In short, he didn't tow the car, he even locked it up for me, rolled up the window and turned the hazards on. We had a very nice conversation on the way to the jail, and I had a lot of fun with the intake guys at the jail. It was a pretty fun experience. I got booked and released, and I had Nina take me to the car so I could finish going to my Dad's house.

I drove the car to my Dad's house, and then home for the evening.

The point I am trying to make here is that I was not hurting anyone by speeding on an open highway. If the speed limit were 80 I would have been pulled over for impeding traffic. I feel as a person, I am extremely inhibited by society and what it dictates for me. Our government has way too much power, we pay way too many taxes and I feel that is the general concensus however not too many have the balls to speak up about it.

If you have time, check out the Libertarian's Facebook group, and their website. They are the third largest political group in the Nation. From their Facebook group, I am going to go over some of their views, and my interpretation of them to give you a better idea of what they are about.

We are not rebels, I should say, I am not a rebel, I am not trying to make a statement by speeding, or doing what I want. I am just simply doing what I am passionate about. I have a hard time keeping jobs because I am passionate about what I do, and I only do what I am passionate about. I can't stand going to a 9 to 5 job just to make money that society tells me I have to so that I can support someone who takes it for granted and does not ask questions about where it comes from.

The Department of Human Services (DHS) refer to themselves as "self-sufficiency" however I don't see how by handing someone food stamps, and TANIF (money to live on, welfare basically) you are teaching them anything except how to mooch off other people. I say, let them fend for themselves and they (or other people) will either help themselves, and get off their asses.

So anyway, sorry about the extra ranting, I just want to get it out. Let me tell you about Libertarians.

From their Facebook page:

"The Libertarian Party is America's third largest political party, founded in 1971 as an alternative to the two main political parties. Our vision is for a world in which all individuals can freely exercise the natural right of sole dominion over their own lives, liberty and property..."

Wow! That is a great starter for me, reading that what comes to mind is I can finally do what I want, when I want, how I want and if I want to be a poor low-life that has a lot of fun in life, then let me!!!

"* Foreign Policy: We support the maintenance of a sufficient military to defend the United States against aggression. The United States should both abandon its attempts to act as policeman for the world and avoid entangling alliances."

Yes, exactly. We only need a large enough military for self defense! Screw getting involved in other's affairs. We don't need to be the saviour of the world, people can handle their own battles, and if they can't it is their own problem. I know that sounds a bit harsh, but it's true and you know it and agree wholeheartedly. We need to worry about ourselves, it is hard enough to manage our own responsibilities, let alone taking on the weight of the world. You hear that Bush? Stop picking fights you ****ing *******!

"* Gun Laws: We affirm the right to keep and bear arms, and oppose the prosecution of individuals for exercising their rights of self-defense. We oppose all laws at any level of government requiring registration of, or restricting, the ownership, manufacture, or transfer or sale of firearms or ammunition. For the LP's amicus brief in the Heller Supreme Court case, visit http://www.abanet.org/publiced/preview/briefs/pdfs/07-08/07-290_RespondentAmCuLibertarianNtlCmtt.pdf"

If I want a ****ing gun, let me have a mother ****ing gun! I don't need to tell the government I have a gun, the only ones that register their guns are the non-criminals. I want to be able to defend myself against crazy *******s who already have an unregistered gun and are coming down off meth trying to rob me of everything for their next fix.

"* Healthcare: We favor restoring and reviving a free market health care system, and oppose any attempt by the government to regulate healthcare."

Let the hospitals charge what they want to charge, do what they want to do, as long as they are not harming anyone. Of course there will be hospitals that rape people financially, but there will also be hospitals that will be free or low-cost for the people who can afford them.

That actually reminded me of another topic, we live in a ****ing sue-happy world! What the ****? I think it should be illegal to sue someone, money is not a consequence, nor a reconciliation for the stupid **** that people sure for. I can understand if someone owes you money for a job you completed, like you remodeled their house, installed a pool and now they refuse to pay you. But to sue an electrical company for their son climbing an electrical tower and getting electrocuted? (Michelle Malkin » Stupid lawsuit of the day) What the ****? For ****'s sake!

Reading some of those comments is great too. for example this one:

"We should put a fence around streets and have big signs warning of danger! Then sue the DOT if someone gets hit� I�m sorry kid but you�ve just become a poster boy, it�s really sad but don�t monkey around power lines, don�t talk to strangers and look both ways are all things that one must learn in order to pursue a healthy life."

And this one:

"It�s all about money, and not the kid. Seems these days, everyone is looking for a way to get millions, regardless of circumstances�encouraged by poor lawyers who get 30%. We have so many lawyers now, suing is the only way to make any money. People are encouraged to sue, so it has now become a routine. I remember once, lawyers were �illegal� here in Virginia. People were so disgusted with them, they banned lawyers. We ought to look at that statute again."

Which leads me to another topic ... money! But that is covered later in this blog post.

We digress...

"* Privacy: We support the protections provided by the Fourth Amendment to be secure in our persons, homes, and property. The government should not engage in illegal surveillance of American citizens."

Oh my, another hot topic. Illegal planting of bugs, wire tapping, that whole 9 yards with no warrant or anything. Holy ****, am I not safe in my own home? Who can I trust to be honest if I can't even trust the government that is there to protect me, you hear that? Protect ME as a ****ing INDIVIDUAL ... I N D I V I D U A L - PROTECT ME!!! You can't very well ****ing protect me if you are busy worrying about my every last movement. Go out there and fight some real crime and LEAVE ME THE **** ALONE!

"* Social Security: Retirement planning is the responsibility of the individual, not the government. We favor replacing the current government-sponsored Social Security system with a private voluntary system."

What a ****ing failure right there, Social Security. I bet I won't ever see any of that money being taken out of my check right now. Let me ****ing save my own money if I want to, or better yet, let me spend it at the ****ing bar and have a drink while smoking my cigarette indoors if the owner of the establishment wants to allow people to smoke in their establishment!

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You ****ing people out there piss me off with your ****, how the **** did a law like that ever get passed? They banned smoking in bars on the 1st of this year, and that is the biggest bull**** ever. If the owner wants it there, let them ****ing have it. If you don't want to be near a smoking bar, then go to a ****ing non-smoking bar you ****ing pussy ass non-smokers who don't think that smokers are people too!

I am a ****ing smoker, I smoke all the time, it calms my nerves and helps keep me from killing people. If I didn't have my cigarettes I would be in prison right now. Now they are trying to abolish my right to smoke, the only places I can smoke now is in my car (when kids are not in it), and at home or other "designated smoking areas".

Everyone is now using this new law as an excuse to get rid of their ash trays outside of their businesses, so I have no choice but to throw my nasty cigarette butt on the ground.

hahaha, next topic:

"*Poverty and Welfare: The proper source of help for the poor is the voluntary efforts of private groups and individuals--not the government."

We pretty much already covered this, let the poor be poor if they want, if you feel the urge to give them money and help them out, that is YOUR decision ... the decision of "the collective" should not dictate that you have to give him money.

"* Taxes: All persons are entitled to keep the fruits of their labor. We call for the repeal of the income tax, the abolishment of the Internal Revenue Service and all federal programs and services not required under the U.S. Constitution."

I went to work, I made the ****ing money. **** everyone else. If I want someone else to have it, I will ****ing give it to them. Taxes are so ****ing rediculous that if you go get a job for $8 per hour, it ends up costing the employer close to $15 - $20 per hour to keep you. You end up getting about $3 of that $8. **** THAT ****ING NONSENSICAL BULL****!

Let the employer pay me $20, ME! Let me decide what I want to do with my $20, let me invest it, let me burn it, whatever. It is my money, not yours, not the ****ing governments to blow, my money. The government didn't work for it, and that ****ing bum on the street collecting food stamps sure as hell didn't work for it!

"*Immigration: We seek a balance between the need to protect the nation's health and security through control of our border with the need for a free-flow of human capital to fill our economic demand for cheap labor. While recognizing illegal immigration is a growing problem in the United States, we believe ineffective laws governing immigration are at the root of this problem."

That issue is not quite as important to me, I will let someone else deal with it.

"*Monetary policy: Individuals engaged in voluntary exchange should be free to use as money any mutually agreeable commodity or item. We support a halt to inflationary monetary policies, the repeal of legal tender laws and compulsory governmental units of account."

Burn all the money! Let us go back to gold, or whatever the **** we want. Maybe I want to be a whore and pimp myself out for food for my family. If that is how I want to procure my food, then ****ing let me! Who in the hell am I hurting? If you don't want me to **** you, then don't give me food and mind your own business.

"* Crime and Violence: Libertarians want a safe society where citizens do not feel that they are threatened by other individuals or by government itself. By focusing manpower on real crimes instead of prosecuting people for nonviolent, consensual crimes, police will be able to better protect and serve society."

Holy ****! You mean I wouldn't get pulled over for going 80 on an open highway? I can't even begin to try to imagine how many manhours and tax payer's dollars have been wasted on me speeding. For crying out ****ing loud, him and I were the only 2 vehicles on the road, had their been other vehicles on the road I don't think I would have had the opportunity to go 80 miles per hour, I would have been stuck behind a slow ******* who doesn't know how to drive and in my opinion is more dangerous than my speeding!

"* Environment: Protecting the environment requires a clear definition and enforcement of individual rights in resources like land, water, air, and wildlife. Free markets and property rights stimulate the technological innovations and behavioral changes required to protect our environment and ecosystems."

Capitalism at it's best, that is how you can describe Libertarians. I was crying tonight, I was actually bawling thinking about how our forefathers who had the balls to stand up for their individual rights came over and founded this country, wrote the constitution are rolling in their graves right now!

In my opinion, they sound like true Libertarians to me, I can just see them up there, "Oh my God, what the **** has happened to that country?" I don't believe they ever invisioned this gross violation of our individual liberties.

We are free thinkers, as human beings, and that is our gift. We are being inhibited in our personal growth of our God-given talents with all of these rules being imposed upon us. People know the right thing to do, and honestly, this quote says it all:

"All tyranny needs to gain a foothold is for people of good conscience to remain silent." ~ Thomas Jefferson

Society can police themselves in a lot of ways, and it just goes back to basic instincts. The cavemen survived just fine and they were absolutely self-sufficient. We are weakening the gene-pool by keeping all these ****ing idiots alive.

For example, when the power goes out and the stoplights don't work...does chaos ensue? Do people crash into eachother? No! That is because people are smart, they are not dumb. They don't need a mother ****ing light telling them every single move to make. I hate sitting at a red light in the middle of an intersection to make a left turn, in the middle of the night, telling me when it is safe to go. I can ****ing see for miles that there is no other traffic, but the thing that keeps me from running that light is what keeps us all in line ... FEAR! Fear of that piece of **** cop who has nothing better to do but to hide in the shadows with all his lights off, waiting for people like me to run that light so he can ****ing nail me!

I feel very relieved now and I hope people read this, it really sucks when there is nobody to reciprocate your thoughts, so I am putting them here and hopefully people will reciprocate.

It is 4:34 in the morning right now and this is my first ever blog entry. I really would like to know your thoughts on what you have read, you can even tell me how much of a douchebag you think I am, let me hear it.

I am going to try and make this a regular thing, and get everything out in the open. I want to get the word out about how ****ed up our society is, and open as many eyes as possible in the process.

Just comment at the bottom right there, give me some source material for my next blog entry.

[Sight]

Cool beans.

[BD-ICY]

Read up to the part where you posted their Facebook.

Was pretty awesome what you said to the cop.

[Antihaxer]

I agree 90%.

[Wholf]

Same here, I don't totally agree but some of the stuff you said I do.

[MnE4life]

Sounds like Fascism and republican polices.

[CrazyGerbilEater]

Sounds like Fascism and republican polices.

wat

[DuckDuckGoose]

tl;dr

[ScAreCroW]

tl;dr

I agree 100%

[MnE4life]

wat

Well
Lowering Taxes: republican policy
Leaving the poor to be poor: republican policy
Isolationism: republican policy
The fredom of business:republican policy
judicial activism: republican policy

there is more but i aint going on

as for fascistism thats simple capitalism with comunism and socalism, most fascists call them selfs national socalists

[Redlemon]

You're actually a really decent, honest person. I respect you. Alot.

[Antihaxer]

Well
Lowering Taxes: republican policy Good
Leaving the poor to be poor: republican policy Good
Isolationism: republican policy Good
The fredom of business:republican policy Good
judicial activism: republican policy Good

I don't see what the problem is.

[Redlemon]

I don't see what the problem is.

Same here. Maybe he's a Kommy.

[MnE4life]

Well did they teach you anything in history class?

[Redlemon]

Who? Me?

[MiCrOz]

(I drive a 2007 Nissan Sentra SE-R Spec-V, 200 Horsepower 2.5 Liter 4 Cylinders, racing clutch the whole 9 yards)

Am I the only one that laughed at that part?

Also, they don't issue a warrent for one month's missed payment, unless you have a habit of doing it.

[MnE4life]

Yes you and antihaxer, they never teach you abotu the 1950s boon and they start off for the second world war? no wounder american education is cred.

[Antihaxer]

Yes you and antihaxer, they never teach you abotu the 1950s boon and they start off for the second world war? no wounder american education is cred.

HAHAHAHAHA. You cannot talk about anyone's education. You cannot even correctly form a sentence without typos you idiot. Are British or some ****? No one likes you kid. You talking **** isn't helping. And no, no one taught me about a "boon" taking place in American history.

[MnE4life]

Are British or some ****? No one likes you kid. You talking **** isn't helping. And no, no one taught me about a "boon" taking place in American history.

With your swearing and confessing to not knowing is not enough to show my point?